Sign.

I'm in a funk, and I know it.
I just need some time & I'll come out.

Remember that episode of Will & Grace
where they all try and cheer Grace up...
and all she wants to do is lie in bed & mope for a bit?

--That's me right now.
Don't want to talk, visit,
socialize, or laugh. Just need
a few somber melancholy
days, & I'll be fine again.

Time-Out

Melancholy today.
Ready for another
self-inflicted time out.
It's who I am.... It's what I do.

Sometimes I really hate that about myself, but I've come to accept that it's just my nature. Some people bully me about it, but those that are closest know it's not personal.

It's been a very rough couple weeks & I'm ready for a break from it all.

My head is hurting, & I've been overly stressed. I was offered the opportunity to be put on call this evening - working only the 1st 1/2 of my shift. I snatched it up without reservation!

Chipped one of my teeth on a fork trying to bite into a cucumber earlier this evening. It's not very conspicuous, but it's sharp & driving me crazy. I kept looking at the fork wanting it to look like it just got out of a garbage disposal, but nope, straight tines - the chip was all me. *sigh*

I wish I could have a secret hiding spot to go to & meditate for a while. My mind is too cluttered here.

Crackheads Make the World go 'Round

Friday the 13th, and I'm not even superstitious,
but whoah nelly... sucked balls. Thankfully it
wasn't with a full moon. (now THAT I believe in!)

I'm convinced that someday there'll be a study proving that crackheads make the world go 'round... showing that, like ants, if you took them out of the food chain eventually all our life as we know it would cease to exist. In the meantime however, the crackheads are driving me batty. 4 of my 6 patients the other day were, & I think that's pretty extreme. My patients sucked, and they ran me ragged, but I was there every 4 hours with the Demerol or Dilaudid & Phenergan cocktail, so we got along... for the most part.

Wonder if there was a shortage of drugs on the streets this week?