Final Final

Final exam is in 9hrs & 18 mins. Wow. Studied for about 20 minutes so far. My concentration level/ attention span sucks right now. And even as I write this, I'm distracted by the constant hum of background noise from my CPU. Geesh. I think I'll do ok. I hope so, at least. With the exception of one exam, I've done very well. I failed one test - miserably. I think I mentioned that before here. The other three, I've scored in the 90's, so I've got a pretty solid B.

So tired. Been very dizzy for a while now, and it's starting to get to me. I don't know what it's from, but my assumption is that it's related to my anemia and other female issues. Hopefully it will resolve itself soon. I've been told to double my iron intake, so now I'm taking several times the recommended daily dosage. (Yeouch!) My ferritin (iron stores) levels awere 0 on my lab draw in September. ZERO. (normal is approx 20-150). My ferritin now is like 6 or 7, and my HgB is up from 9.3 to 9.8. My doctor seems to be pleased with the progress. I however, wish we could get it in faster. I'd rather they just give me a unit of RBC's and a mini-bag of iron.

In My Other World

The sky
would be amethyst
and stars
replaced
with dancing fish
glimmering
in the moonlight.

And we'd all
ride to work
in pirate ships
with wheels
looking up into
the mystic
purple
sea-sky!!

After the storm

The sun is peeking out. (From the clouds of yesterday's shitstorm of a day). Thank god for Tola! She made 4A bearable today! It was so awful yesterday, I can't begin to tell you how bad. I wanted to cry. To add to the stress, I started my day (yesterday) by spilling a whole coffeemug full of strawberry oatmeal all over my truck. The latter part of the day, I found I had failed my nursing exam. (When I say failed, I mean FAILED). There went my A.

I still have oatmeal all over my black wool sweater, my purse, & ingrained all through the upholstery & carpet of my truck. I still lost my A, but it's another day, thankfully. And for that, I am happy.

Hell

4A=Hell.
instead of saying
"go to Hell"
from now on,
I think I'll say
"go to 4A!"

You're Good Enough, You're Smart Enough...

• Not a chance you're going to see me sitting with a patient in full gown & gloves for my whole shift. I'm in a clean chair, and will gown up PRN!


• My ethics class: I'm calling it my "Stuart Smalley" course!


• So sick of the way some people insincerely pry. If I know you truly don't give a shit, do you honestly think I'm gonna tell you what's up in my life? Yeahhh... no.

Reflective Comparison

In my life, I've been compared to Rayanne from "My So-Called Life", Grace from "Will & Grace", and Sandra Bullock's character from "Miss Congeniality". -- These comparisons were made by my family and closest friends.
Looking at these 3 characters is giving me a little bit of insight on how I'm viewed by those closest to me.

On Surgery: Mom's was a no-go. Try again tomorrow.

10/4/06

Narcs found in an unlocked drawer - unclaimed.
Very bad thing!
Don't know who they belong to.
Good thing I'm honest!

On Surgery: I'm Scared.

Parking

Parking garages were not meant for large vehicles!

Autumn October

Iwth the golden hues cast on buildings, trees, everywhere... even nature knows it is October. And nature, too, is revelling in this glorious change of season!